Another endless night. I stay awake through twilight. Not being able to sleep as I wonder whether she’s alright. I overthink things alot. I tend to think too much till I miss the chance to act. Should I ask, should I let her ponder alone. Will it make her annoyed if I ask. All these questions pass through me. Keeping me awake.
I wonder most of the time what I should do. I wonder whether it’ll make her happy if I do it. I made her mad once, I don’t want that to happen again. She’s already having enough trouble as it is, and I don’t want to make things worse.
I care for her alot. I love her. I miss her. I want to hold her everyday. But, I don’t have that leisure because of my overthinking. I need my own car. That way I could stay over at her house when she’s feeling down. I could visit more often without caring whether the parents need the car or not.
Another thing I think about is whether going too mAny times in a week would be bad. Parents won’t like that I think.
I wonder whether she’s alright. But I’m afraid to ask cause I don’t want to annoy her. But it might even annoy her if I don’t. Get it now why I say I overthink.
I wonder whether she’s free tomorrow. I want to see her to check whether she’s alright. Yeah, I’ll call her tomorrow. That sleepy girl I love.
Till next time. Hope I’ll be able to sleep
mikalionheart
